If I could just see you

LDR is tough. I guess that goes without saying. You think you're doing fine and dandy and suddenly one day, you'll be hit by a monstrous kind of loneliness that just makes you wanna wallow in self-misery and despair all day long. You allow yourself that one day to feel all depressed and morose, and the next day you have to pick yourself up and try to get over the loneliness haunting you. Focus on the big picture, you say. Or at least, that's what I've been trying to tell myself. To further comfort my heart, I've been looking through pictures of Santorini in hopes of cheering me up. I hope it'll be just as beautiful when I'm there in person.

  

I was tagged ages ago by Rose of Roses are Red   to do a favourite photo meme and as usual I can never decide on only one, so I present you some of my favourite moments from eurotrip summer'09. Hope you're not too bored of them already!

♥ Paris - Extremely excited to see the Eiffel Tower upclose!

♥ Scotland - I love how every morning I wake up to beautiful scenery like this!

♥ London - In front of Buckingham Palace, I love how you can see the storm approaching.

♥ Florence - Had to pinch myself a few times to make sure what I'm looking at is real and not just a dream!

♥ Pisa - Such a hot, sunny day! Look at the blue blue sky:)

♥ And of course Venice - probably the most romantic place on earth.

 On a last note, these are some links where you can find me! Please feel free to add me so I won't feel so lonely:)

Formspring

 Twitter

Chictopia

Weardrobe
  
p.s. Can anyone send me an invitation to lookbook?

Playing dress up

is one of my biggest indulgences in life...

The love of aesthetics in fashion, being able to be creative and experiment..
the freedom of expressing oneself in their outer appearance and clothing adorned..
I believe it belongs to every individual.....
Fashion or style is subjective...
So I do not see or comprehend why whatever I wear should be any of your business...
to put it ever so bluntly...
Especially when I do not seek for your opinion...or your approval...

I have always dress as I like since the beginning of time
and I shall continue to do so until the day I die hopefully...

with that said, here are pics of me looking like a "nurse" last Sunday...

and lookie! Snowflakes on my tights!!and here are some more pics where I look slightly more "normal"...

My sunday....

What?! Sunday already and the night is almost over...sobs sobs....
Anyway, this is me today....I tidied up my closet a lil on Friday and unearthed this floral dress that I've worn only once since 2002? ( it has never seen daylight ever since cos I thought it made me look kinda pregnant, which is always a bad thing!! ....) anyway, thought that it's time to get it a second wearing and give it a more updated look with a cincher and a jacket...hopefully I don't look pregnant this time....:P

Jacket: Mom's hand me downs
Dress: Comma
Cincher: Elements

earrings: Vincci

and this is a frightening close up of the new earrings I wore today haha...yea I love ribboned bows in whatever shape they come in....and why does my hair look like dry hay? sigh...

After church and lunch which ended 3 plus, I slept most of the afternoon away.....and woke up when its time for dinner.....had dinner at Hassan's in Taipan, serving authentic Kelantanese food....however its really overpriced and the dishes a tad too salty....the ayam kampung goreng was ok, edible....hehe....I really miss the curry ayam kampung in Sri Devi's KB....who can tapau and bring it back to Subang for me??? so yummylicious....I miss it!

Most tiring week ever....

I can't tell you how happy I am that it's finally Friday.....working late for the whole week has kinda taken its toll on me....I'm so tired I can go to sleep right now....
Anyway here are some pics of me this past week,
some days I had to skip cos I was too tired to bother about what I'm wearing....
Very preppish looks....

Top: Topshop
Skirt: The Gray

Top : Niichi
Skirt : Comma
Shoes : Times Square

Wearing my mom's ribbon brooch again....
Top: P & Co

I'm so excited Christmas is coming!! Anybody else excited?

Me today....I think I dressed too gloomily for work....
maybe I'll try more colours for the rest of the week....

Top : Sg Wang
Skirt : Jusco
Belt : From another shirt bought from Niichi

Last Friday's outing to Pyramid

Top: Swapped
Tights: Summit
Shoes: Summit

Me sneaking a pic in Erwin's room lol...

Top : Romp
Skirt: Zara

From last week....
I think I like shirts with bows a lil too much....

Top: Niichi
Skirt:Comma

How I miss my photographer....it's no fun taking pics of yourself....:(

Leftovers from last week....

Wearing my favourite pendant :P
Why I can never smile properly??Jailbird look for the day hehe:)

Top: Dorothy Perkins
Pants: Seed
Waist cincher: Theme

Sometimes I wonder what it's like to be truly happy and contented with what you do...
it's a feeling that still eludes me...I'll keep trying and working on it and yet still come back to square one....what I would do to find something I can be passionate about, something I can throw myself into and yet derive complete joy....

okay yeah, that is my rant of the day....

I watched Becoming Jane last night...the movie was loosely based on the real life romantic acquaintance Jane Austen had with a young, dashing lawyer Tom Lefroy (played by the never-ceasing-to-amaze James Mcavoy), though it's not proven how deep the attachment really was.... I was a bit skeptical on why Anne Hathaway was chosen to play one of the greatest English author of all times....she just doesn't look like a Jane Austen to me, though she is charming enough and sweet enough when conveying emotions with her big brown eyes...still, it was a delightful yet difficult movie to watch, made me teary eyed during some of the heartbreaking scenes....as rather unfortunately, Jane did not have the happy ending that all her heroines have in her novels and lived unmarried throughout her short life.....

I have a feeling that I'll probably start rereading Pride and Prejudice (still my favourite among the six books by Jane lying on my shelves)....should be the 6th or 7th time I'm reading it now?

Another Sunday....

It's been exactly one month now...
and I'm still wishing that time will pass by faster....

Tube top: Niichi
Jacket: Niichi
Skirt: The Gray
Shoes: Times Square

Rosy pink....

Esther and I were so happy to discover some rose earrings in Pyramid the other day that we snapped up two pairs....one in pink and one in purple....and so I happily wore the pink ones to work today.....but much to my horror, after coming back from lunch, I reached out to touch the earring on my right ear and it was gone! All that's left is the fastener behind....Sobsss....I guess it's meant to be the first and last time I will ever wear this sweet pink rose earrings....so now I'm left with only one as you can see in my last pic....maybe I will get my mom to make it into a ring or a necklace....sobs....why does terrible things happen to me???

Turtleneck : Mng
Skirt : P&Co

Morning, beautiful!

Today I had to get up early to go for training in Bangi, so I was goin along my usual route....had to use Kesas cos that's the only way I know lol....and as I stopped at the second toll booth to make my payment, I was greeted by this chirpy cheerful malay guy in mandarin, loosely translated as "morning, beautiful"....it really amused me and truly made my morning....I mean how many times have we passed by these toll booths to be greeted by indifferent faces...so I was really suprised that this guy chose to be different....dare to be different haha.....makes me think how I can do something to brighten up someone's day.....and not be so self centred all the time...well, I'll try, tomorrow.......... :P

Wearing my mommy's pearls and looking dead tired after training :)

so preppy-ish

Stole my mom's vintage 1980's ribbon brooch...so cute rite?
Gonna start digging out her old treasures hehe....

Top: from my sis's pile of clothes
Cardigan: Seed
Skirt: Comma

Snapshot

Thousand thoughts running through my mind,

My feelings in a state of chaos,

My emotions feeling like it doesn't belong to me,

Peace, be still............

Cropped Cardigan: Amour

Tank top: PDI

Skirt: Nichii
Shoes: Treats

Night without

What I have been up to tonight...

Nothing much actually, brought my parents to MV to meet some old friends from Indon....Had dinner and dessert....okay, this was supposed to be a happy post.....but I'm suddenly reminded of the very fact that you're not here, that I will not see you for a very long time and this just tears me apart....These days I just find myself randomly in and out of myself....even when participating in the conversations at dinner or even when I dream at night.....there's just this unpleasant thought nagging me at the back of my mind....sometimes I am able to ignore it, sometimes I just don't have the strength to combat it....like right now? I just feel like bawling my heart out....to say that this is really unfair and why should I deserve this?.....and yet, life still goes on right? and in life, sometimes you gotta bleed a little...to know that you're alive....and this pain, right now...I guess it's just mine to carry for the moment....so for now, let me just find the comfort in crying myself to sleep...

good night....

Dress: Blook

Belt : Elements

Nothing that's true...but You

There are days when I become another person
When my wretched feelings take its toll on me,
And when I disguise myself with a new face

When I cease to even know myself
And when I become a stranger to my own words,
When I do not want to do anything else
But wallow in my misery,

When I know of nothing that's true but you,
When the only thing I do know, is that you love me,
In the truest sense of that much too careless word, LOVE,
And you know me, even when I do not know me...